I know a lot of you will feel what I am about to say next. A few years ago, I started my trading journey. It becomes obvious that we are constantly distracted by other people's strategies. About a month ago, I fully switched from TradingView to NT8 for everything. I wish NT8 was faster.... lol. Back to my story.... I have lost a lot of time and money and eaten it with the idea that its "tuition". It's not; we all know we should have been trading DEMO but what's the fun in that? Wait, is losing fun? No, but I'll explain later. Here's where it gets odd. I started going to life coach because feel lost in my career ( outside of trading ) and in general. Over time a pattern formed that I think a lot of us share. So after analyzing a lot of my issues, what has become clear is that I can easily start an account and then get it positive. but the second its positive, I start trading outside of my strategy. Why? Well, it comes from a core issue, the idea that if my progress is not perfect, it's a failure. And if it's a failure, what's the point in trying? Let me give you an example. If you were a D student, and lets say you starter working harder and taking things more seriously and got to be a C student. That would be progress and something to celebrate right? not for me. I live in extremes. If I am not an "A" student then I think I have failed even though there's an uptrend.Tthat's my loop. A loop I have been avoiding until now. Heres where I need your collective help and hope someone else benefits from my painful pursuit of acceptance.
Starting Monday, I will be starting my journal... Its the only part of trading I have avoided but its time.
I trade ES, during the NY session in increments of 2 FYI.